In a recent couples therapy session we were talking about Taylor’s memory. He forgot (yet again) what we had discussed the previous week.
Interestingly, this is a common occurrence for many couples I see even though they are intelligent, high-achieving, and powerfully positioned in major corporations.
It turned out his memory problem went beyond forgetting our meetings. And it bothered him a lot.
We discussed the impact of his bad memory on his partner Ashley. She had to compensate in multiple ways. She would feel unimportant to him and react in pouty punishing ways which then triggered him.
She then asked if the reason he didn’t ever call her during the day just to say “Hi” was because he couldn’t remember.
He paused and said, “No, it is a problem of intentionality. I make work a priority over calling even though you ask me to.”
Ashley’s “reptilian brain” could easily have responded with righteous outrage for yet again feeling like a low priority.
Taylor knew he was potentially creating a firestorm. He could have told a lie and nobody including me would have known.
So how did Ashley respond?
She thanked him for being candid and responding with integrity.
It was a terrific example of how couples can communicate when not coming from their self-centered, self-protective “reptilian brain.”
They both responded from their higher selves, the part of the brain that can envision how they aspire to be when feeling threatened.
It was a big step toward creating a strong team where both partners can learn to trust the integrity and honesty of their partner.
This is what you want, right? To trust the integrity and honesty of your partner.
Of course it would have been simpler to say a little “white lie” but they had been on that slippery slope before. One cover-up after another had led to a vast emotional distance between them. They avoided as much as possible talking about anything that could be disagreeable. Or that would evoke displeasure.
The distance grew. And they could not talk about that, either.
The “reptilian brain” doesn’t care about emotional distance. It only cares about avoiding the stress of an argument. It wants to be safe right now even if the cost is greater distress later. Kind of like “ice cream today and diet tomorrow.”
The lizard brain lives in the moment and for the moment.
Taylor and Ashley were collaborating to create a better future. One “simple” transaction at a time.
What would you have done?
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Getting back to Taylor’s memory…what can a couple do when one partner can’t remember what was discussed or decided? I am endlessly frustrated when I think something is decided, only to find that my partner doesn’t even recall the discussion, let alone what we decided. He asks me things, but never remembers the answers I give. Things don’t get done because he doesn’t remember agreeing to do them, or even that something needs to be done. We have the same discussions over and over. How can we ever progress when it’s like living in a time loop?
Selective memory loss is a passive aggressive character trait. Please research passive aggression. My husband came from a family that never allowed him to express his views or disagree. He observed and learnt that he could rebel in a subtle way, by appearing to hear and agree and then decide to forget the conversation. He carried this behaviour forward into our marriage, I would ask him to do something, he would agree and then should he not want to do it, he would conveniently forget, or else say I made it up. For the people on the receiving end of passive aggressive behaviour it is ‘crazy making’ the co-dependant dance has to be acknowledged and stopped before healing and growth can begin in the relationship. Knowing the truth will set you free and victory will follow.
Crazy-making is right! My partner had a similar upbringing. So how do I deal with it? I’ve learned not to believe/trust him, and I take care of anything important myself, to make sure it’s done, so I’ve reclaimed my life from the disasters he’s caused. But that leads to a lot of resentment on my part, that I have to take responsibility for everything. Is there any way to FIX this, or is this as good as it gets?
Lynn – what does the word FIX refer to? You? Him? The relationship? it is unclear.
The other question about “is this as good as it gets” are you referring to you or your partner?
Do you believe this is as good as it gets for you?
This is not an idle question- it goes deep into your core convictions and values about what you will or will not stand up for and will you accept and deal with the consequences of your choices?
For better or for worse your dilemma is about the painful choices you are confronted with. At some point in many people’s lives we are confronted with extremely painful choices with no easy answers or solutions.
With all sincerity I wish you well with your tough choices
Pete
So far all the changing has been on my end, and I’ve bent as much as I intend to. By FIX, I mean two people trying to work things out to have a fairer, more balanced relationship; an equal partnership where we both contribute, in terms of keeping the our lives running (house, bills, food, etc) and improving our relationship. He has not been open to discussing it; he gets sulky because he can’t help that he ‘forgets’ things and says it’s not intentional. Is ending the relationship my only option?
Lynn -I don’t know if ending the relationship is your only option. You could consider seeing a couples therapist (one with A LOT of experience). If you have bent as much as you intend and he is not open to discussing it, then having a third party help each of you out of this impasse may be your best alternative at this time.
Pete
I also join the ladies with husbands who conveniently cannot recall important discussions. In my case, I married someone a decade older so it really did seem like a physiological issue and I worried about Alzheimer’s. But soon I realized he remembered what was significant TO HIM. This really is a vicious cycle of frustration, arguing, and zero resolution. Ultimately we divorced because I couldn’t take the feeling of spinning my wheels and wasting my breath talking!